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I'd like to write a poem or prose so nice
The ones that ooze with good advice
The types full of wisdom and truth
The ones that can calm and soothe

Or maybe a verse full of wit
That'll make readers go "That's neat!"
But all I can come up with is this lousy thing
About the things I keep wishing

I should come to terms with it
I really can't write for shit
DAMMIT!

Free Palestine!

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v Saturday, September 28, 2002 v

There was a Sec 4 farewell today at Mrs Goh's house. It's such a lovely house. It's those pre-war colonial mansions, nicely renovated. I wonder if it's got its own ghost. Frankly, I expected more from the wild Sec 3s. The ones we organised 2 years ago was so much more fun. We were playing at the beach in the sea. This year was just eat, play sstupid games and I was reading my book towards the end. Anti-soc but who cares. I've already isolated myself from the rest of them. I may appear proud but I'm not. I just don't really like to get close to them. I can't click with them, especially when they're in one group together.


Anyway, I know where I stand and its nowhere near close to them. I just wish Kami stopped trying hard to be one of them. If only she knew what Sara told me...I'm surprised Kami would do something like that. Maybe Sara might be a bit exaggerating about them bitching about Kami but still...


I tried to talk to her and all but when she's with them she sorts of moves away. I go to where she is, then she moves away after a while. That's the way I saw it. Maybe it was my fault... I stopped eating recess with her and going to Malay room before school. So, we drifted apart. I don't remember much what happened during Anklung I guess I isolated myself too. But that was when I grew close to Sara. And I didn't really want to eat with Kami because she'd want to hang with the gang and they'd sit at those tiny round tables and I felt I didn't fit in. Wait, that was right before I sat with the class, before I started seating with the X208 ppl. But, I was really angry the way she treated me during the camp. That was the last straw. I admit, I accused her of being minah and all(which was abit unfounded)...but I was really mad at her. And she suddenly started being all nice and opening up to me(again, that's the way I saw it) quite recently. I don't know! I give up! I suck at making friendships work sometimes. First it was ain, then jo, then kami, and then Ruth!
I'm SorrY! SOrrY! Ok?Ok? I hope you'll find better friends out there, because obviously, I haven't been much of a friend to you guys.

~wYLdeFiLLy~ 9:04 pm [+]