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I'd like to write a poem or prose so nice
The ones that ooze with good advice
The types full of wisdom and truth
The ones that can calm and soothe

Or maybe a verse full of wit
That'll make readers go "That's neat!"
But all I can come up with is this lousy thing
About the things I keep wishing

I should come to terms with it
I really can't write for shit
DAMMIT!

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v Friday, May 14, 2004 v

Haiz. Today started out shaky. GP sucked cuz some ppl ponned and Daniel got scolded.
I don't know why when some of the class were complaining how ppl were irresponsible and that really unnvered me, even though I said, "maybe they were really sick."
The irony was that those ppl were reallie sick i.e Kopi N Li, but you know like the boy who cried Wolf and other complicated matters about agreements and such, it didn't matter.

Den I got really angry somehow at all the complaining. What are they complaining baout? This is just one bloody event, they don't experience it all the time. they dun feel responsible for a friend all the time, so how dare they complain so much. Then something in me just boiled over n exploded, n i went to the toilet to cry for a while.

its just a bloody snowball when you're so sick n tired for feeling responsble n irritated when a friend takes you for granted and everything else so flippantly. It's irritating and sad and annoying. Where do you draw the line between being kind and being weak? Then I remember all teh properties of a good friend and I get mad because you're supposed to blame it all on yourself and eccept 70 reasons (even if they're lies) about the sutff your friends do. And if you can't accept it, break it off. I don't want to. Fuck life.

Fuck people who are actually nice but have no sense of social responsiblity or show it.
It's afucking society we live in, what you bloody do affects everyone. You tell me to thinik of all the grateful stuff and somehow I don't really feel it. I'm blinded by jealousy and biasedness and this assumption that you're scared of/dun like of me because I'm not so kind or weak as I used to be. But I was just beinghuman goddammit, perhaps trying to establish my rights. If some ppl dun mind u pushing them all the way (but then u haVEN'T done so), so fucking be it. Why does your friendship trouble me the most?


I'm fucking trying hard.

~wYLdeFiLLy~ 7:55 pm [+]