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I'd like to write a poem or prose so nice
The ones that ooze with good advice
The types full of wisdom and truth
The ones that can calm and soothe

Or maybe a verse full of wit
That'll make readers go "That's neat!"
But all I can come up with is this lousy thing
About the things I keep wishing

I should come to terms with it
I really can't write for shit
DAMMIT!

Free Palestine!

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v Tuesday, July 06, 2004 v

NO I don't wanna die, just had PTW's song. Anyway, I was thinking... how odd it is to look back and see how much change has happened and whether you'd have known that you've evolved to a different person. As I grow, and slowly, hopefully, I hope I'm growing into a much more mature person, closer to the person I hope I can be. No one's perfect, but so isn't the ideal person I need to be. As I've grown older, my outlooks & experiences change thus, the stand I once held, sometimes falls apart into a different opinion, supported by the changes I've seen & went through.

And then, you see your old friends changing, doing what they used to oppose, not in a direct way, but it was seen as unacceptable in the past. And now, they nearing the other end of the spectrum, and they've changed in ways, that you can't accept. Maybe my experiences don't compare to theirs hence, they think such stuff is ok, but I'm still insisting on my moral highground. I don't like hearing a lot of cusswords for silly trivial stuff, like I'm a fucking life saver! I only use such words when I'm deeply frustrated and angry, not just drop it every chance I get. And the things we used to argue, about whether religion permits it or not, and now... they just do it. x_X

But you still love your friends for who they are because they've been kind & loyal & still remain to do so. I suppose such changes are the tests of time, trying to erode away at something that threatens to disintegrate. But how far can such a fragile relationship go befoe the thread snaps, because of the conflicting pressure between wanting to stay close friends because they're nice people aside the flaws, and the responsibility to decide from the guidelines how far should the friendship go if they don't change.

~wYLdeFiLLy~ 11:00 pm [+]