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I'd like to write a poem or prose so nice
The ones that ooze with good advice
The types full of wisdom and truth
The ones that can calm and soothe

Or maybe a verse full of wit
That'll make readers go "That's neat!"
But all I can come up with is this lousy thing
About the things I keep wishing

I should come to terms with it
I really can't write for shit
DAMMIT!

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v Sunday, July 31, 2005 v

I'm going to UWA to do dentistry next year, InsyaAllah.
I am so pleased that I made it there.
Of course, I'm still as sad as ever that I didn't get to go NUS dentistry. I'm mad at the deans & wtv shits.
Yes, I sound childish but wtvr.
In your face you suckers!
And I feel terribly bitter & ashamed of myself when I hear so & so doing dentistry in NUS.
I question their desire. which is selfish of me. I'm pretty sure majority of them want it at least just as much as I do. I still do. The rest, I'm bitterly despising & envying them. Like JD GRAARGH! Even when I think about it, I feel embarrassed if I were to speak to them. There's the stigma I attach to myself. FAILURE!!!

Yes, I am going to grow old bitter & lonely. Fuck it man. That's how I feel.
And I feel a bit annoyed when some of my friends question my purpose to do dentistry. Or how some of them reacted when I got pharmacy.
At least my family & relatives are supportive of me.

Damn, I have unbelievable standards for myself. But I don't work hard to achieve it.
I have problems with acceptance of myself.

I am proud still & very syukur that my parents are willing to fund me to UWA. We'll sell the house because of it. The girl who cost her family their house. Haha.
that's me.

Rejection still hurts me, my pride, my ego, my esteem.
It will be a while but hopefully I will learn from it all.

~wYLdeFiLLy~ 11:40 pm [+]

Comments:

oh so your the VJ gal who threw a tantrum and complained to dr ang why others could get into dentistry and you couldn't. Man you're such a loser.

Go get a life gal. Stop blaming others for your inability to suceed.

# posted by  Anonymous : 7:55 pm

 

hey, loser you back.
I never threw a tantrum at anyone.

# posted by  ali*ya : 1:56 am

 

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